ME AND JUX ME

2011-11-12T02:27:00.001+08:00

2 months in camp le... hopfully nth will happen in the remainding 3 to 4 months... had my 1st shoot today... started law not long ago... pdt oso learn half way... alot more to learn ar... today oso draw our laptop... but apparently... the laptop can't do anything de.... no internet, game, movies, music.... nth at all... only notes... lol... haha... nvm lar... i go sleep le... signing off... 12/11/2011... 2.27am

2011-05-06T23:37:00.000+08:00

i dont see wad i do is wrong... maybe yes... my mind is not so stright... but compair to others... eu have been so lucky... fine... i do not want from now on... but seriously... i dunno wad will happen in the future

2011-05-01T13:28:00.000+08:00

haish... 1/5/11... sunny day... 14 days to 1 year... and 1 day after the day i almost died... i tot eu would be more... appreciating me more den ever... ya... i see eu giving me stuff eu nvr gave b4... i was touched... i tot eu really worry of lossing me... but... maybe i was wrong... today... i found out... wad eu always feel... i feel hurt... i was such a guy... in ur mind... in ur heart...... i.... i aslways did everything i could for you... no wishing for anything in return... i did everything willingly.. but wad i heard from you that hurt me so deeply... "i dunno why i give it to you, wad do i get in return, wad do i benifit from"... that's wad eu told me... i started to think... i started to cry... i had so many friends... whoes heart is not as gd as me... but... their girl... always do anything for them... love them for who they are... looking back... so wad if i have a golden heart... my girl... just thinks me as a usless guy... who have a dirty mind... and who cant even earn enough to support her... i'm really envious of ppl out there who had such a good girl... who will cherish them... i sometime dont even know... is this the routh i should choose... why... why do i have to so good... i want to die... i feel so hurt... eu don even care... eu only care when smth is happening... all my life... i only wished for a girl who can love me... care for me... but the girl god gave me... have everything but not the 2 i wanted... i cant take it much longer...

yes... i may want it again and again... isn't that wad every humans do... as long as it's smth nice... they want it again and again... must you really count every small things we do and put it in ur heart... are really so concern abt the things we do... if eu feel this way... eu can always go find other guys... i'm not the type for you... why cant we be just as loving... just... argh.... i dunno... i... i am so usless... maybe i shouldn't even started this r/s... maybe if i dont... eu can get a btr guy out there... i'm just usless... a usless guy with a golden heart... wad's the point... haish... i just want to be hiding in a corner alone... crying... and not wanting to think of anything...

2011-03-10T22:47:00.000+08:00

how long are eu gg to cont lying to me? how long do eu intend to hide? how much do i really worth to eu? how much do eu really love me? why... finally... finally i understand how eu feel and wad eu think... i am nth but a pig in ur heart... not even worth to be a human in ur heart... nvr intend to marry when eu have accepted... lying to me everyday even till now... how much longer are eu gg to lie... to me... to urself... i choose to trust eu... but eu lied to me... i lost the confidence in love... loss hope in love... in everything... and i loss trust in you... most impt... i loss trust in myself... loss the love... loss the dream... loss my future... i'm just a guy who cant succede in anything... cant even give joy to the one i love... it seems i'm really useless... a usless guy forever...

Today, the day i'm hurt most... the day... i finally sees the truth... the day i given up on hope.... given up on love... dissapointed... dishearten

2011-03-01T10:39:00.000+08:00

28/2/11 -
i went to ur house. i am abt to leave. all eu gave was a hug. wanted eu to pei me to lift(which is just right outside ur door), you refused. i went home feeling disapointed. messaged eu. dunno for wad reason eu got angry. i was sad yet again.

29/2/11 - i working with a broken heart, eu called and hang up the phone on me again. i asked eu. but eu nvr bother to tell me wad's wrong. i tried to make eu happy. tried to let this go. i asked eu in a cheerful way to meet in the afternoon. but eu told eu, eu don wan to see my face. hurt yet again. wad can i do. but seriously eu are xiao qi. or else eu wont get angry over me saying eu xiao qi. haish... worst part. eu told me... told me that i'm useless... now i finally know wad eu think of me. maybe i should just end my life. no point for a usless guy like me to stay on earth. and more important. a usless guy waste ur life. maybe i should just die. the earth will have 1 lesser useless guy. and eu can go find a more useful guy

2011-02-15T22:20:00.000+08:00

14/2/11

the first valentines day i had... i want to thank my dearest sijia... did so much for me... bake some cookies for me... i nvr recieve any b4... specially bought and wear a dress for me... i want to thank you for it... i love you dear...

2011-02-09T23:52:00.000+08:00

if i had a chance... if i'm gg to poly... i want to change course to under F&B... but i wonder if i could

2011-01-31T23:15:00.000+08:00

i hate it when eu hang up the phone... do wad ever eu wish... i just don like it... eu nvr tot of the feeling of others... dear... eu are no more alone... eu need to think abt others... no just urself... this r/s is not abt eu or me... it's abt us... plus consider my feelings like i did b4 eu do smth... it hurts alot... when i tried cheer eu up... and eu just hang the phone on me...

2011-01-31T23:06:00.000+08:00

it's just so sad that eu nvr bother tell me anything and always complaining no one understands eu... tried to understand eu... eu shouted at me... ask eu don so angry... eu hang up phone on me... T.T... how many times must i tell eu... if eu nvr tell me any... i would nvr understand... i don wish to see eu sad... but eu always get angry/sad/pissed off easily... see le heart pain... wad can i do... eu will just hang up the phone on me... wad can i do... tell me

2011-01-30T01:26:00.000+08:00

haish... seen ur blog... feel so usless... cant do anything... wad happen dear... nvr hear eu tell me... i cant do anything unless eu tell me... i cant do anything now but to tell eu i love eu always dear... forever and ever

2010-10-09T10:54:00.000+08:00

9/10/10
T.T.... morning my dear... Day 2 of ur curise day... I'm missing eu so much already... 1 whole day cant msg eu... Eu're so far yet so near from me... You must be missing me just like i'm missing eu right now... Haish... I want to hug eu... I want to kiss eu... Dear... I miss eu

8/10/10
Eu left for ur curise... I know... It's just like 2 day that eu're away... Not like NS so long... but.... Why.... Why can't i stop my tears from flowing when i see eu leave... I won't let go of eu anymore... I love eu my dear... No matter wad... I'll be there for eu

2010-10-03T01:22:00.000+08:00

I hate my mum. freaking nagger...nag nag nag non stop... pissing me off... the only reason that make me wanna leave the house is you 2, mum and dad... patatic... just cause eu not gd mood.. have to turn the whole family upside down... wth lor... always say father not at home we vry bad... go die lar... is eu turn siao... say eu'll as parents know us the best... shit eu... if eu know me well... just shut the hell up and leave me alone mum... i had enough of everything... if one day i die cause of eu... don regret... eu have over cared... i tried to be nice... eu cont nag... den say i rude... who started it... i really feel like saying "shut the **** up" in ur face

2010-09-28T22:28:00.003+08:00

weeee... i'm gonna be so rich... aft F1... earn alot... den b4 F1... normal work... now co-op stock take... weee... alot $$$

2010-07-31T20:13:00.000+08:00

today she clebrate my bday for me... brought a wallet for me... but havent see yet... hmmm... haish... a lot happen lately... this and that... haish... dunno if can survive... dunno wad will happen if this cont... only can hope she take one step back for me and for once... sometimes... i'm sick and tired of feeling hurt... haish

2010-07-16T23:13:00.000+08:00

hmmm.... today went drinking with vincent... her unhappy abt stuff... though i vry full now... but oso learnt a lot... haha... hmmm... i always tot i was too fast... but now... aft hearing alot... i found out i was not as fast as i expect... den today... dar dar sick le... Get well soon wor dar dar... luvs

2010-07-12T20:26:00.000+08:00

2nd week of sch... stupid timetable... tue 8 hr of theory of the same module sian... time table every day need 8 reach sch... super tired... co-op nowadays vry busy...

but at least... i got her by my side... to pei me everyday... but sad... i always tries to understand eu... but... eu always say no one understand eu... haish... how can i den really be the first to understand eu

2010-06-15T21:53:00.001+08:00

happy 1st mth... ^^

2010-06-12T11:41:00.000+08:00

10/6/10... my ganddad pass away... had to attend funaral... took urgent leave... went home changed and to funaral place...
11/6/10... brought my dar home... see parent... btw... thanks eu dear for pei-ing me there... be wif me when i need eu

haish... hope ur parent can approve only

2010-06-07T23:20:00.000+08:00

15/06/10 was that special day... 1 mth coming... every day is happy to me... esspcialy when wif her... though i make a lot mistake here and there... she's still understanding and forgive me... all i can say is i louve her a lot

2009-12-21T21:23:00.000+08:00

posting here in Cambodia... staying for 2 weeks... 10 day here so far.... gotten my psp.... missing everything i had lost so far... emo-ing away here in Cambodia... going die le... haix... life really sux... arghhhh...

2009-11-05T09:48:00.000+08:00

just bought contacts... and oso going buy psp soon...

2009-10-08T16:57:00.000+08:00

getting my pay on sat... $267 only... haix...

2009-10-03T15:15:00.000+08:00

shit it... phone spoilt... contact all lost... need get them back 1 by 1... shit... sian lor... now using my sis de spare phone... haixh

2009-09-29T11:47:00.001+08:00

wow... super tired... work for 3 days from 6am to 4am the next day... at F1 event as a waiter... leg dying liao...

2009-09-16T19:14:00.001+08:00

holiday lyk nvr holiday liddat... everyday go sch... haiz... sian...

2009-09-15T18:16:00.000+08:00

"Purest of Pain"

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call
but I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
and so I surrender just to hear your voice
I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live with out you
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you
but there's something baby that you need to know
that deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.
Vida, give me back my fantasies
the courage that I need to live
the air that I breathe
carino mio, my world becomes so empty
my day's are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste
the purest of pain.
I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better every day
that it didn't hurt me when you walked away
but to tell you the truth I can't find my way
and deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.
Vida, give me back...

2009-09-08T17:25:00.001+08:00

hiax... life sux as usual

2009-09-08T13:15:00.000+08:00

7/9/09 & 9/9/09... got exam... sian diao... need spemd hours and hours studying

2009-09-05T23:13:00.000+08:00

3/9/09...

sake sushi with class... total 13 ppl... the food rox... eat till going die... super bloted... eat from 3 to 6... dinner oso nvr eat le

2009-08-24T12:10:00.000+08:00

stupid teacher... start lesson late... end lesson early... waste my time...

2009-08-20T10:21:00.000+08:00

today;s lesson boring... study till PDA... dunno for wad... stupid worksheet... haiz... ltr got theory lesson... even more boring... haiz... after that at 2... got cca... going down to clementi for cca... dunno wad time home... slack slack a bit... eat... watch tv... sms a while... jiu sleep le ba... so boring... nth to do... tmr going back to cckss... always looking forward to that moment... :)...

haiz... ok... posted... next time den post again

2009-08-18T13:11:00.000+08:00

y... life sux...

2009-08-18T13:09:00.000+08:00

haix... lalala... haix...

2009-07-29T10:56:00.001+08:00

haha... 5 more days to my Bday...

2009-07-17T22:06:00.000+08:00

wa.... si peh long nvr update le... lolz... busy schooling, going archery and busy gaming... ha ha... recently oso just bought my personal bow... cost 650 bucks... kinda ex i know... plus bow case which cost 100... add up is lyk 750... all 2nd hand though... march pay till now haven't get... damed pissed off... get pay le oso need use the pay to pay for the bow... haiz... broke le... tmr no sch... tmr sat... happy le... can sleep later le... exam oso coming up in 5 to 6 weeks time... need start study soon... oso hope those ppl who spam in me blog don disturb me le... wad ever over is over le... anyway it's oso nth to do wif eu... haiz... life si peh boring sio... ha ha... lolz

2009-06-11T20:35:00.001+08:00

won 5th in inter ITE archery competition... for the individual men's event

2009-06-09T20:31:00.000+08:00

life sucks... hate life... tmr compitition le... a bit not really got confident... no mood oso... need reach yishun at 7.30 tmr... event starts at 8... stress... 1st time archery competition

2009-06-02T12:30:00.001+08:00

ha ha... broke my personal record again.. gotten 294 points... :D... compition oso coming liao... it's lyk... only next wed and thurs...

2009-05-31T18:28:00.000+08:00

wa... this week archery... must shoot at least 14 set... which is lyk... 36 x 14 = 504 arrows... and all must score at least 260... stress sia

2009-05-30T17:08:00.000+08:00

ha ha... today archery traning at YJC... from 8 to 3... wa... super tired sia... broke personal record of 270 (previously) and got 284 (2day) though... haiz... just another nth to do day...

updated blog

2009-05-23T15:52:00.000+08:00

life sucks... why end up liddat...

2009-05-18T11:42:00.000+08:00

UPCOMING EVENT

archery competition---10/6/09, 11/6/09
wu-shu exam---14/6/09
NYAA(gold) chlate---june holiday

2009-05-08T22:19:00.000+08:00

WA... got 2 competition coming up... got open jive and archery (inter ITE) competition.

2009-05-08T22:15:00.000+08:00

got my arrows already... 12 of them... ha ha

2009-04-29T21:58:00.001+08:00

ha ha... longest post so far....

2009-04-29T21:50:00.000+08:00

wa... studies getting chimer and chimer... stuff getting harder and harder to understand... wad i really need now... is the cd-key of "adobe photoshop cs2" and "microsoft powerpoint"... without it... really hard to follow lessons... poor me...

today oso just submited my "NYAA" silver... sec sch oso had the muster parade today... well it was kinda fast... erm... around 10 mins... kind of... wow... fastest parade in my sec sch history... well tmr will be tired day... sch starts at 8... which mean i've to wake up at 5.30am... wa... will die sia... need sleep early today... sian...

fri maybe oso going to buy labtop... most prob buying hard disk oso... haiz... next week oso getting my archey arrows... need pay another $100... vry ex... haiz...

2009-04-13T14:31:00.000+08:00

wa... went to pengaran for a 2 day 1 night stay... on 10/4/09 to 11/4/09... sooo happy.... 1 day... or should i say 2 days without my parents... did lots of thing... lyk ridding a bike... and stuff liddat... eat so much too... lobster... prawn... stingray... all see food... worth $300... erm... ok fine... it's RM and not sing $.... had lots of fun... sad thing that i missed my class outing... sch oso just stated... 1st day in sch seems fine... still a long way to go... having fun though... watta life

2009-03-30T18:18:00.000+08:00

life sucks at home... happy that sch re-opening soon... 13/4/09... too bad i studying at ITE college west-dover campus... studying information technology

2009-03-09T23:04:00.000+08:00

sch open 13/4/09... looking fowardto that day

2009-02-21T23:02:00.001+08:00

wa... these few days super busy sia... work work work... hardly any time to play

2009-02-02T12:56:00.001+08:00

going ITE dover studying information technology

2009-02-02T12:55:00.000+08:00

lost 20 bucks during CNY le

2009-01-19T20:10:00.000+08:00

haiz... vry heart broken... vry sad even up till now... reaching 2 months without her le

2009-01-14T10:46:00.000+08:00

wtf sia... i failed my "O" levels

2009-01-02T16:34:00.000+08:00

haiz... 4 more months to sch start... 14 more days to "O" levels result... haiz

2008-12-24T00:12:00.000+08:00

haiz... long time never update le... so far life as normal... only one or 2 unusal and special things... lyk broke up wif my stead... went wakeboarding... fell while cycling... went for chalat.... stuff liddat

2008-12-02T17:02:00.000+08:00

i change my number to 81233131

2008-11-25T18:05:00.000+08:00

haiz... holiday nth to do vry sian... haiz... looking forward to 1st dec....

2008-11-12T15:22:00.000+08:00

wa.... finally.... over.... time to enjoy le... :D

2008-11-11T15:48:00.000+08:00

today exam science paper1... quite ok.... not vry hard.... den the LC super easy

2008-11-07T13:29:00.000+08:00

today lit over le.... relax a bit le... only left with science paper 1 and B.chinese.... :D

2008-11-03T17:34:00.000+08:00

haiz... today de SS kinda hard.... almost killed me.... :D.... most likely will fail.... :(

2008-10-30T12:04:00.000+08:00

today de math paper 2 just over.... kindda easy.... e math should be able to get A1 le... :D

2008-10-29T10:24:00.000+08:00

haiz.... today got sci paper.... physics.... den tmr e.math paper 2.... haiz... so sian...

2008-10-28T10:00:00.000+08:00

haiz... "O" levels haven't end.... still got a lot to go.... hope end quickly

2008-10-22T11:02:00.000+08:00

lolz... science paper easy dao alot never read.... eng paper 1 quite hard... but paper 2 quite easy de.... overall easier den expected

2008-10-20T11:19:00.001+08:00

haiz... sian diao

2008-10-20T10:37:00.000+08:00

haiz... today... first "O" levels writen paper... science paper 3.... den tmr... got eng le... haiz... "O" levels so fast come de...

2008-09-25T16:11:00.001+08:00

haiz... "O" levels coming... 20 days away le... not vry prepared... dunno if can pass.... 2 more months to end of "O" levels... haiz... wish my days pass faster.... till "O" levels end

2008-08-21T18:15:00.001+08:00

taking NYAA silver this year

2008-08-21T18:14:00.000+08:00

haiz... "O" levels coming le

2008-07-30T14:53:00.000+08:00

lolz... class made a new class blog... the previous class blog didn't last long... last year & this year same class... but last year de class blog only last for 1 to 2 months... wonder how long will this blog last.

2008-07-28T17:46:00.000+08:00

haiz... "O" levels coming.... 3 months time.... about 2 months prelime liao.... haiz... stress sia... need work harder liao... mid year exam de result like shit.... haiz

2008-06-27T15:29:00.000+08:00

haiz.... holiday vry the busy... only can rest on e last week... haiz... first week... and second week... got remedial... third week... got camp... only can rest on last week... haiz

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2008-06-04T13:27:00.000+08:00

haiz..... holiday so sian..... 2 week whole going school..... got 3 subjuect each day.... 1.30 hr for each subject..... worst is sometimes got 3 hr lesson of 1 subject..... haiz..... holiday so sian

2008-05-23T13:55:00.000+08:00

sob..... great grand mother died on the 18/5/08...... 100 years old le......

2008-05-07T16:59:00.000+08:00

.......... sob..... my pet bird just died on saturday...... due to hunger ba...... i went out in the afternoon wif my family..... around 12....... leaving no one at home...... and found it dead at 6 pm when i reach home..... sob..... pity my bird..... burry it at the back of my block..... sob..... to think the bird is wif me only for 3 days....

2008-05-02T13:23:00.000+08:00

..........

2008-05-02T13:06:00.000+08:00

lolz..... find a baby bird around 2 weeks old while cycling.... two days ago.....

2008-04-29T14:27:00.001+08:00

haiz..... got M.T listening compre today...... haiz..... den got remidial..... haiz..... all end at 5.30pm..... so sian...... so tired..... hope the year end quickly..... dying of tiredness soon le...... arghhhhh!

2008-04-29T14:24:00.000+08:00

haiz...... my gan mei (god sis) just cut herself yesterday...... feel so pissed off..... so irritated...... try asking her wad happened...... she say i buzybody..... haiz..... oso dunno wad to do wif her..... jus feel so dissappointed..... haiz

2008-04-29T14:20:00.000+08:00

haiz..... just passed out 4 days ago....... miss my cca..... hope cca will never end..... i loved my cca..... just can't bare to let go..... sob....

2008-04-17T14:08:00.000+08:00

haiz.... just another sian day..... got detention again.... just because i late..... haiz..... still got loads of works to be done..... haiz

2008-04-01T16:00:00.000+08:00

haiz.... so sain.... just another boring day.... luckily no chinese remidial 2day.... or else will sian till die de..... haiz.... still got math remidial later at 7..... haiz.... feel like dying

2008-03-27T16:34:00.000+08:00

haiz...... "o" levels coming..... first paper on may....... haiz....... on the 26/5/08........... so sian

2008-03-27T16:17:00.000+08:00

haiz....... another boring day......... gotten detention for no reason....... still have to go home early for my a.math remidial....... haiz...... oso still got homework....... so sian sia......

2008-03-11T13:23:00.000+08:00

Haiz...... just gotten my result......
eng--- 56/100
m.t.--- 65/100
math--- 45/100
science--- 54/100
humantities--- 29.5/100
lit--- 53.2/100
a.math--- 7.5/100
haiz..... this times result really screw up....... gotta really work hard for my 'o' levels...... haiz

2008-02-29T13:34:00.000+08:00

bro, sis, mum and Me

mei, sis, bro and me

ME, sis, bro

sis, bro, dad and ME

2008-02-28T16:25:00.000+08:00

haiz..... just another boring day in school...... but luckilly no homework today...... can finally enjoy myself for a day....... =D....... haiz...... just can't wait for tmr..... having our annual scouts and guides campfire 2008....... =D....... gonna enjoy it...... sad thing is....... got to pack up after the campfire...... can only reach home at around 12 midnight....... =(......... haiz.....

2008-02-19T16:30:00.000+08:00

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2008-02-14T14:26:00.000+08:00

haiz...... 14/02/08....... valentine's day........ so sian........ spent $25 buying sweets and coco for the whole class........ nth to buy anyway......... so just spend that small sum of money to buy stuff....... lolz.......

2008-02-11T15:44:00.001+08:00

haiz....... a very sian day today........ felling like dying.......... got geo test at the very start of the day.............. 4 period of eng........ 2 period of E.math (teacher very du lan)................ 3 period of A.math...... slept through it though....... lolz ........ the day just end like that lor.............. just a very sian de day........

2008-02-04T17:35:00.000+08:00

THIS IS JUST ME JUST ME & ME AGAIN

2008-02-04T17:02:00.000+08:00

haiz....... CNY coming le......... so sian....... prefered school den to have CNY holidays....... haiz

2008-02-04T16:36:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE
May all your wish come true in 2008

2007 have been a wonderful time for me,
Being able to know more friends and also attain more lifelong skill
Many things happened...
Be it Happy or Sad, just let it be gone and continue living a happy life =)

My new year resolution is:
Everybody be happy, world peace and do more plastic and get good results for O lvl!

ARHHHHHHGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
STILL GOT MANY WORK TO BE FINISHED OMG~!